Itchy! Itchy! Itchy!!!!

Ok, so I understand that to get the look you want it comes with a price. But honestly does it have to itch this much!?!? I'm seriously going crazy here. I've put every type of lotion on that you can think of. I'm not burnt, my skin is brown. Or as brown as it has ever been in a long long while. Some might argue that I'm still pretty pasty but the cute little heart shape sticker line on my stomach tells me other wise! I put on some aloe just recently and I think it's a little better, but I haven't itched this much since I had the chicken poxs.
The guy I dated before my mission and I have been writing back and forth via work email. I finally told him what some people are saying about him back here. That he's madly in love with me and will be coming back to sweep me off my feet. He wrote back to inform me that though he still has feelings for me he doesn't see himself making the kind of sacrifices needed to be my husband.
Frankly I was fine with that. I'm not upset and I agreed that I felt the same way. He actually has said that he wasn't sure if he should continue sticking around or if he should walk out of my life completely. I told him that was silly that I still wanted his friendship.
Katie - the one that insists that Robert and I are meant to be together still insists that he's denying his feelings. She's always been a little persistant. I think she's wrong though, I don't see it happening.
So that's what's up with me. Itchy skin and the boys are moving in and out of my life. Even James. I have a feeling it's not going to work out, mainly because God pretty much told me I haven't met "the one" yet. That requires a lot more patients then I think I know how to give. But that's the point right, to learn?